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Weight Watchers Meeting- Portion Pro

It’s been another rough week foodwise. I made a casserole and eggs (which were so dry!) for the week but once I got home I would consume anything within eyesight… I got into this rut and now I’m paying for it. I both need and want to eat better because eating a bunch of crap makes me feel like crap.  Luckily today is pay day so I’m working on what I want to make for the week and healthy snacks to have for moments that I need to eat something.

I need to start eating less saturated fat too because my Cholesterol is on the high side (even though my HDL and LDL levels look great) and I’ve been trying to integrate exercise into my life so I need to lessen my intake of butter and even though I hate saying it, lessen the meat consumption… I’m not like a he-man meat eater, but I should eat more fish and beans for meals and less steak. Again, I don’t eat steak or ground beef every day, but I still want to lessen it.  Also, not that I’m obsessed with cheese but I’ve notice I’ve been eating a lot of it in the dishes I am making…

The eating showed this week as I gained another 2 pounds… It’s not only affected my weight, but also I think it’s affecting my emotions…  This week has been kind of a scary week for me.  I have had these irrational worries of my mom just dropping dead at any moment, or me having something deathly wrong with me post surgery and I had a good talk with my therapist about it and I told her if I can, I really don’t want to go back on an anti-depressant so she told me to try exercising for an hour straight and that cardio is best so I am going to work my way up to doing an hour at the gym.  Not all on the elliptical but I’ll work my way up at least…

So this week’s meeting was about portions and the importance of having a food scale.  I love my food scale and use it for quite a bit.  Weight Watchers came out with a food scale a week or two ago but I have the one before that and I am perfectly happy with it.  You can find out how many points something is by looking up the foods loaded into the memory of the scale but I just use it to weigh things.  I should try out that feature though.  The new one just has a bigger screen that’s now backlit and an easier way to look up foods you’re weighing… Pretty great feature additions but I’m happy with the one I have.

I find personally when you weigh portions instead of measure, you end up getting a little more for your serving so if I am packing up some pretzels or crackers or whatever for a snack, I’ll weigh it instead of measure or count out the amount because you get at least a couple more pieces.  For recipes I will always measure because you need more precise measurements (especially when baking) but the scale definitely is a key to my portion control.

Anyway, that’s about it from me.  I’m so glad the week is over.  This day was kind of depressing because of the rain.  It was stormy and dark out and I am so glad we’re getting rain here in California but it still can be kind of depressing.

Motivation · Plus Sized Empowerment

Things Not to Say to a Fat Girl

OK before the air gets sucked out of the room, I want to start off saying I know this is a very sensitive subject and highly controversial, but I was reading an article that a friend of mine posted from Cosmo of all places about things not to say to a fat girl (You might want to read the article first because I’m just giving my 2 cents on the list and not saying what they said) and I wanted to speak a little on the subject and how I personally have been affected by most (not all) of what was listed and just generally speak out about how women are treated in society period.

I do want to warn you I may start venting a bit because some of the people who have had “concerns” for me are my own relatives.

  1. You’re not fat!- First off, no one has EVER said that to me so maybe I’m too fat to have someone say that to me to make me feel better.  I have had similar comments like, “you’re not that bad.” But I get the gist of what they’re saying.  We need to stop making fat a negative word.  It’s a descriptor.  Try switching it with another word and you can see how ridiculous it sounds.  For example, “That girl is so blonde!” Get it?
  2. You have such a pretty face –  Or how about, “you’re pretty now, just think about how gorgeous you’d be if you lost some weight.” I have had RELATIVES say this to me.  It’s funny to me that relatives are more vocal than friends are… Do you really think these statements make us feel better about ourselves? The answer most definitely is no!
  3. Oooh, Let’s go to Bebe!!!- I think Cosmo thinks that this is an actual statement, but it never has been in my circle of friends.  ONCE when I was a teenager I was with a friend who wanted to shop in there and I felt like a blob!  If you haven’t read the article, read it for this specific one, her reply is hilarious!
  4. Do you really need that candy bar?- Ok, so reading this one too makes me realize I got off kind of lucky because I never had this one either.  I find it atrocious that someone would have the gall to say it though.  I do remember watching Supernatural on Netflix to see why it’s such a big friggin fandom on Pinterest and being appalled that one of the main characters said something similar TO A CHUBBY BOY ON HALLOWEEN! I felt sick to my stomach.  They also have said other things about fat women and female virgins and if it weren’t for the comments like that, I might have really liked the show. People say such great things about it and I have watched it due to being vested the storyline and wanting to figure out what happens but I stopped it at about 2 or 3 seasons ago… (SEE THE DAMNED TANGENTS COMING IN! I’ll try to keep them at bay but that has been eating me alive for a long time now!)
  5. You’d look better if you were healthier.- See response to 2 above… And I’d like to add, how do you know I’m not healthy? Are you my doctor? Have you seen my lab results or medical history? No!
  6. Ugh! I’m so fat!- I have heard this plenty of times and I have felt on occassion, well if you think you’re fat, what the hell do you think about me? But I have grown to realize that society has beat us into thinking we just have to be negative about ourselves and being fat is “the worst thing you can be.” So it’s not that they think badly of you because you’re bigger but we’re all so used to saying bad things about ourselves. And from personal experience, I have only seen this happen with women, never with men…
  7. Have you ever tried INSERT EXERCISE HERE? Have you ever heard of exercise at all? Do you come from this planet? That’s how they worded it… But I get more of comment #10 below so I’ll get more into it there.
  8. Oooh! Can I borrow that skirt sometime?- No one on God’s green earth has asked to borrow my clothes.  I am shocked someone would ask especially when they’re of a different size than me.  Plus, I don’t really know what I’m doing as far as fashion is concerned.  I really need to win the lottery so I can get a personal shopper…
  9. Have you lost weight???- I get this ALL THE TIME, however, it’s because I have indeed lost weight.  And you all know it if you’re been reading my blog.  So, it’s not annoying to me.
  10. You know, Atkins worked for my aunt.-  I have gotten get this exact comment (but it wasn’t a hint that I should do it, it was just family updates, oh so and so is doing this) and I have gotten again from relatives, similar comments that get my blood boiling.  I had one person tell me that “You can’t lose weight if you don’t go on a diet.” AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH! That got me SEETHING! I had another relative say something along the lines of, “I see your pictures on Facebook and…” pause and a look on the face that says “you’re going to die any minute because you’re such a fat piece of crap and you’re clearly so unhealthy and I’m so “worried” about you.” And the funny thing is these people have NO BUSINESS telling me how to live my life.  I was told these things after losing between 15 and 25 pounds.  It was like the weight I did lose didn’t count.  You’re still a fat piece of crap…
  11. I am just trying to help.- But you aren’t helping.  You think you are, but you’re making it worse…
  12. This was a bonus and actually a positive comment that is okay to say… You should be a Plus Sized Model. – Thing is, no one has ever said this to me either.  I do get told I’m pretty by my relatives or close friends but that’s about it.  I once was told (no joke) by a guy giving out samples at Costco, “You’re pretty, but you know you’re mom’s more beautiful right?” THAT WAS SAID TO ME! Thanks bud for the back handed compliment and for setting me back at least 10 years trying to feel better about myself! Really appreciate it!  I get told all the time that my mom could have been (and can still be) a model.

Basically, we need to treat everyone with the same respect we expect from others.  We need to stop putting people down for what society finds as a shortcoming. Also, it is NOT OKAY to put down someone just because they are skinny.  It goes both ways!  And it’s not just weight or looks but also skin color, height, social status, having anything that is different from the media’s view of what is “normal.”

So instead of putting people down, why don’t we worry more about what we are contributing to this world? Go serve food to the homeless instead of automatically assuming they are going to use any money they get on drugs. Try giving someone a complement instead of an insult just to get a few laughs.  We should just try to be better people.

Okay, I’m going to stop.  I really hope I don’t get a lot of flack for this post but I really needed to vent. And fyi, I am okay with suggestions and comments on this blog.  That’s what this blog is for.  I am trying to lose weight for health reasons and trying to be healthier in general and that makes this a place for that kind of discussion.

Okay, I’m off!

Life · Motivation · Weight Watchers

Fun’s Over

Okay, I had a 3 week lapse that was frankly a blur of binge eating which resulted in a 4.2 pound weight gain.  My bad… But I’m back!  I’ve been getting back to walking with my friend at work roughly 2 times per day and I finally went to the gym that I signed up for almost a month ago…

I finally got over a head cold that wiped me out but luckily only lasted a few days. I was eating a lot of fruits with vitamin C, and drinking a shot (my brother’s idea) sized amounts of EmergenCy (I don’t know how it’s actually spelled…) by putting a packed of the fizzy grossness into a small amount of water so you can choke it down as quickly as possible. It really isn’t that bad, but I’d rather do it that way.  I also was drinking a TON of green tea and water and taking Advil Cold & Sinus and I’m thinking the combination might have helped me get of this bug faster.

Anyway, I bit the bullet last night and went to a Weight Watchers meeting where they talked about emotional eating which was something I needed to hear.  I know I’ve talked about the subject before but it’s a tough thing to have to deal with.  Aside from being an emotional eater, food is my “drug of choice” as my therapist says.  It is something that is on my mind 24 hours a day.  Even when you’re trying to lose weight (which those of us in this category usually are) you are obsessing even more.  Your mind is constantly going okay so this is what you’re having for breakfast and around this time you can eat your snack but try to wait until you’re really hungry for it even though I want to stuff my face RIGHT NOW.  It goes on like that for me pretty much constantly.  It’s annoying as hell, but it’s my cross to bear and hopefully something that I can overcome or at the very least manage.  It gets pretty exhausting!

I wanted to try having a smoothie straight for breakfast this morning to see how I do on them instead of having one with something else. It didn’t work.  I was starving after roughly an hour even though I had 1 cup of fat-free greek yogurt in it.  It was a very good smoothie but I need food to keep me at bay for the morning.  Eggs in particular are my go to protein for the morning.  They are the only thing that seems to last for me.  So coming up with egg casseroles and other egg dishes seems to be what I need to do.  Luckily you can make something like that and have it for the rest of the week and you don’t have to worry about making anything in the morning. So my goal is to find more egg recipes and have eggs and a smoothie in the morning for breakfast.

Today was my first day at my new gym.  I did 20 minutes on the elliptical and I already walked about 40ish minutes at work so I did pretty well with the exercise today.  I ended up walking 12,500 steps and earned 8 activity points for the day. Hopefully I’ll work up to more resistance and going for longer.  But for now that’s about all I can do.  And that’s okay, and right now, I’m absolutely beat so I need to get to sleep.  Tomorrow is my baby bro’s 25th birthday and I’m getting up early to go back to the gym with my mom and then we’ll spend the day with him and his fiancé and her son.

Good night!

Life · Recipes

NutriBullet Review

I got my Nutribullet this morning and I was so excited that I immediately made a smoothie with it.  It came with a lot of stuff and I decided to use the small cup since I had breakfast just before it got there.

I scrambled 1 egg and 2 egg whites into 4 chopped up sautéed mushrooms, 2 pieces of center cut bacon cooked crisp and crumbled, and 1/4 cup reduced fat cheddar cheese. It tasted pretty good but I’d like it maybe as an omelet or half the recipe and put it on an english muffin or something like that, OR maybe as a casserole… I’ll have to look into that.


Anyway, I just did a NutriBlast which is 1/2 greens, 1/2 fruit, and a boost of some sort (Chia seeds, nuts, or whatever) so I filed the cup 1/2 way to the max line with fresh organic spinach, then the rest of the way with frozen strawberries, I filled up to the line with water (you can use other liquids too but I decided water since I already had breakfast), added 1 tablespoon of the Superfood that it comes with and a packet of Stevia.


Then you put one of the bladed lids on tight and push it down on the Power Base and twist to the left to keep in place and it PULVERIZED everything.  I had frozen berries in there and it blended it like nothing!


The smoothie I made was kind of bland but I didn’t go by a recipe or anything…


It looked a bit like muddy water too… I still drank it.


The box that I only just fit the NutriBullet box.


In the box was The Power Base, 2 tall cups, 1 short cup, 1 oversized cup, 1 regular lip ring, 1 handled lip ring, 1 flip top to-go lid, 2 stay-fresh resealable lids, and 2 extractor blades.


It also came with a Life Changing Recipes Book, pocket nutritionist, a few pamphlets, and the Superfood Superboost which is a blend of goji berries, cacao nibs, chia seeds, and maca powder which is about 1/2 the size it looks like online.


After obsessing over my new “toy,” I got ready and I went and got my smog check for my car so I could renew my registration.  So all over it was a fun day. 😉

That took a few hours and by the time we were done it was around 4:00 and we were starving.  It has been raining all day so driving in it kind of sucked but what can you do! We went over to Panera and had soup because my poor mom just came down with a cold. 😦 No bueno! She got french onion soup and I got chicken noodle.

We went home after that and both fell asleep on the couch.  It was kind of a tiring day (as boring as it sounds) so I guess we needed it.

We had hot dogs, chili, and cornbread for dinner.  If you are looking for a good mix, I HIGHLY recommend Trader Joe’s cornbread.  Going by the recipe on the box, it’s 6 PP for 1/9th of the recipe but it is very moist and delicious!  I might try making it by swapping the 1/2 cup oil you add with something else to lighten it up a bit.  The mix also has freeze-dried corn in it which is not something I’m crazy about so I just sift it in a baby colander to remove them.  While it is 6 PP, it’s a pretty big piece.

I hadn’t gotten all of my fruits and vegetables today so I decide to make another smoothie, this time with 1/2 mango, 1/2 strawberries (all frozen from Trader Joe’s) and filled it with 1/2 milk and 1/2 water, and 2 stevia packets.  It took a little longer to blend, but I liked the taste much better.


Much thicker, you could eat it with a spoon if you wanted. Don’t mind Chris Pine in the background. We watched Star Trek: Into Darkness (for the millionth time) since we watched the first one yesterday.


So that was a little more eventful than it’s been the last 2 weeks. I better end it on that. I have to get the dishes cleaned since the landlord is coming by tomorrow to finish up work on a leak we had coming from our sink into the garage below. FUN!

Life · Motivation · Weight Watchers

NutriBullet and Weight Watchers Meeting Delays

I was supposed to get my NutriBullet Pro today but apparently I needed to sign for the box and we were out getting my brother a pair of slacks for an interview with Home Depot tomorrow and any other upcoming interviews he may go on.  Anyway, I’m annoyed but it’s not the end of the world.  They said they’ll come back between 2 and 5 tomorrow and I can sign the notice incase we’ll be out at that time which I don’t see being an issue.

I can’t wait to use it though.  I am going to start out kind of boring I guess though but I am looking forward to trying their recipes in the book that comes with it.  I like the fact that you can blend wheatgrass in it (although it sounds like you might as well eat broccoli as there is the same amount of nutrition for the same amount of food) and other things you can’t normally blend in a blender.

I bought frozen mango, raspberries, and strawberries at Trader Joe’s and the first few days I guess I’ll just do frozen fruit with some milk and maybe a handful of spinach which I originally bought for a dish that I probably won’t get a chance to make before it goes bad.  My cousin loves hers so I should ask her what her favorite recipes are.  We will have slightly different books so I’m sure we can share recipes with each other even though we live 400 miles apart! I’m really excited to use it though! I’ll be sure to write about it when I get the delivery!

I didn’t go to Weight Watchers today.  I felt guilty because I know I’ve eaten too much this week.  That was bad of me and I know better than to do that especially since I had my surgery only 2 weeks ago.  I am feeling MUCH better and I’m ready to go back to work on Monday.  I’m actually looking forward to getting back because I’ve been going stir crazy resting at home.  I got bored a lot and I think that led to over eating.  I do want to go to a meeting on Saturday because my leader does those meetings and I’ll talk about what the meeting was about then.

My mom and I are going to start going to the gym this weekend as I feel like I can at least start on the elliptical going fairly slow. I don’t want to put it off because the longer I do, the harder it will be to start.  I was hoping to use my NurtiBullet in the morning for breakfast but I guess that isn’t a possibility.  Oh well, I mustn’t dwell on what cannot be changed.

That’s about it I guess… I haven’t had much to talk about being stuck at home and I’m blocked for topics to write about!  It’s kind of frustrating but I don’t have a choice. I moved my follow up appointment to the morning so I can go to work right after.  I won’t be able to go back to work without my doctor’s note so hopefully everything will go well and I can move on with my life.

Well, I guess I’ll end it on that note. I’m going to put Star Trek (the 2009 one) for my mom (who’s coming down with a cold!) and me and try to get to bed early so I can get used to waking up at 6 for work on Monday.

Life · Motivation · Weight Watchers

Weight Watchers Weigh In

Not that I had to go or anything, I decided I wanted to go to my Weight Watchers meeting last Thursday.  I lost 4.2 pounds and I was a little surprised because I have been bloated from the surgery but it must just be air or something.  Maybe it’s just the fact that I’m not back to 100% (not that I was there before with the bad gall bladder and everything) but I did have surgery so it’s not at the top of my list of things I need to worry about.  It was still awesome to see that weight go down though!

Anyway, I’m continuing to do a little better each day and I’m sure you’re all thinking, alright, enough with the surgery stuff, so I’ll try to keep it at a minimum.

I’ve been thinking a little lately about how I didn’t set any new year’s resolutions and I have a few in mind I want to set since this is kind of the fresh start to my new year. I’ll go over the list of what I’ve been thinking about and hope to accomplish this year.

Night Time Routine – I’ve never been good at washing my face or taking my make up off. I brush my teeth but at least but I haven’t bothered with taking care of my face and I must say I was lucky enough to not have much of an acne problem growing up.  I went through the normal teen hormonal period everyone does but it was one of a few of God’s graces that I received. I guess he figured I had a lot of other crap to deal with physically that he’d give me a break on that end… Now that I’m 30, I really need to be diligent with taking care of my skin so I’m doing some research on a good cleanser and moisturizer that isn’t too expensive.

I did splurge on a $50 jar of eye cream that had great reviews and I had a 20$ coupon from Ulta so it only ended up costing me $40.  Plus, the lady said it’ll last me at least 5 months and seeing the tiny bit I needed putting it on tonight, it might last even longer.  I have extremely dark circles under my eyes and I’ve been told by multiple people at places like Ulta and at the make-up counters in Macy’s and Nordstrom that using a good eye cream helps that a lot.

I haven’t found a cleanser or moisturizer that I love and every time I turn I do any research the only ones that seem to be worth a damn are expensive as hell so I’m hoping to find something I’ll really like that is affordable enough.  I am difficult too in the fact that I have tried a ton of moisturizers that I have reacted very badly to because my skin is SUPER sensitive and I get a headache from most fragrances…

I will say that Clinique has a clarifying lotion (it’s used as a toner) that I have used (when I am diligent about washing my face) and my mom has used probably since I was a baby if not longer and it’s the best toner I’ve ever used.  That being said, I decided to get their cleanser and moisturizer.  I am not crazy about the fact that they test on animals so I may try something else after I finish these bottles.  But they are very well known for skin care and their prices are affordable enough.

Organization – I want to take my time with this one.  It’s been something I’ve wanted to do but I procrastinate because I’m not quite sure what to do and I get overwhelmed so I’m taking it in small steps. I started by organizing our medicine cabinet.  I know it’s not that big but I could never find my stuff.  Things seemed to move around.  So now my mom’s stuff is in one part and mine in the other.

Health – With my gall bladder out-of-the-way and not having to worry about what I eat, I still want to eat healthy and continue my weight loss.  I succumbed to the powers of At-Home-Shopping and bought a NutriBullet Pro.  My cousin has one and loves it and I really need to get more fruits and vegetables in my diet and I figured it would help… But in general, I’m going to continue trying to eat healthier.  I also am looking forward to getting back into my walks at work and starting up at the gym.  I have to clear out my old iPod so my mom can use it while she’s with me.  The gym we signed up at has loud music playing and I know both of us would rather choose what we listen to while working out.

Anyway, that’s about it.  They are pretty big changes to make so I don’t want to overwhelm myself.  Plus, it’s 12:30 and I have to get ready for bed!