Overwhelmed with Organization

This promise I made to myself is already feeling overwhelming.  The first room I’m working on for this year long project is my bedroom.  I know I have it broken down into sections, the closet, bed area (I got new “end tables” that I will show later on), dresser, and dressing table and I have to tell you, I go in there just to start clearing things up for the area I’m going to work on and I take one step into my room with this mindset and I have to turn around and leave because it just gives me a headache.  I’m trying to not look at it as a whole but I can’t help but see the entire thing and it’s just too much to think about.

I have more motivation on the weekends but I still am struggling with just starting. I think what I need to do is put on music and maybe set a timer for even 15 minutes and say to myself, just work until that timer goes off and see what you did. Then gradually add time to the timer.

I’ll tell you the whole thing makes me wish I was in a Disney movie so I could either have little woodland creatures helping me out or be one of the fairy Godmothers and I could just use a wand to do my bidding so I can put all of the crap away with the flick of a wrist or just making it disappear all together. Disney really does set impossible standards in that sense.  Not one squirrel or bird has offered to help me!

All joking aside, my plan for the week is to do what I mentioned. Turn on Pandora, set my timer for 15 minutes at least once, maybe twice (with a break in between) per day until I have each section done.  My goal for the closet is to get it done in a week.  I think that’s doable.  And of course I will document the before and after when I am finished and I’m really excited to get that posted.

So as stated above, I didn’t get started on organizing over the weekend.  I really didn’t get anything done on Saturday and I went to Ikea and my brother’s home on Sunday.  I have to admit this and I hate that I get this way but I have been on a mood roller coaster on and off since Saturday and I get upset over the smallest things. Maybe I have super early PMS I don’t know but I can’t figure it out.

Like, I was screaming my head off driving home today and I practically want to cry right now because I ruined this recipe for breakfast I tried to make.  News flash- baking eggs without scrambling with milk and/or cheese can make them SUPER hard and now I want to cry. That’s not normal.

Maybe I’m in a funk right now and I just need a good cry to get it all out.  Sometimes I have those moments and if I have a good cry it releases all of the emotions going on in my head. I’m going to keep an eye on it over the next couple of days and see what happens.

Do you get overwhelmed with big organizing projects?

Getting Out of the Cycle

I’m sure those of you who have been reading my blog are realizing that I’m not doing the best emotionally at this point.  Why?  I’m not really sure.  I’m stuck in this cycle of feeling down, eating more to stuff down the emotions, not exercising, always feeling tired, etc. and it’s just hard to get out of.  I went to my weigh in and gained but I already knew that was going to happen.  It’s actually not that bad, I think I gained a pound but it showed as more in the afternoon then in the morning (the main reason I want to weigh in at a different location!) so it will just show next week.

So my goal now is to get out of this vicious cycle.  I have a lot of support behind me including both of my aunts, a few friends at work, and most importantly, my mom.  She’s starting to do better in her life and she’s able to start moving on now after the last 3 years of dealing with my dad’s sickness and mourning over his death.  I know she’s not finished mourning, and neither are my brother or I, we won’t be for a long time, but we’re in the healing stage.

I had more planned for this subject, but I’m so tired and I really need to get some sleep.  I am still trying to figure out WordPress so please bear with me while I do so.  There’s a lot more to WordPress then BlogSpot!